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I don't have the energy to take an interest in my life anymore. I sometimes wonder why people like me are born. I mean really, what's the point of having duds? I guess we have to have losers to know winners, right? I guess that's possibly a way my life has purpose.
I often get to the point where I just don't want to live anymore. I don't want to wake up another day. I just want to lay down, go to sleep, never wake up, and forget this life ever happened.
Gawd what a load of self pity crap. You're 24 years old, this is likely going to go on for decades if you cannot find the strength to change course.