Originally Posted by
ChristianonLI
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I will never get her back no matter what I do.
As for what you said Indi, before I met her I was already convinced all women were like this; cruel, unsympathetic and very situational in how they administer their love, ready to drop that honest man at a moment's notice should they get even the slightest whiff of an upgrade. That's why I would only be allowed one chance to find one woman because there could only be one woman different from the rest, a woman who wasn't like this at all and thereby capable of actually loving me and staying in love with me and my unimpressive mediocrity. But now that she's gone there's no one else because all the rest of the women on this Earth want what I cannot give and what I do not have. They want a strong man with a good job, tons of ambition, a full head of hair and an ample bank account. Even if these women have a job and can support themselves on a genetic level they want to be taken care of and that means money and power in the hands of the man, of which I have none. And now the woman I gave my heart and soul to is living her life, happy to be without me, regarding me as inferior and never again will she feel the slightest bit of love for me. Only scorn for all I couldn't be for her. That's a tough pill to swallow, people. So tough that I feel a deserve to choke on it for not naturally being that man she wanted. After she left she spent months chastising me for not being that man, as though it was my fault for being exactly the person that I am. When you marry someone you are saying you accept that person for who they are, flaws and all. Which she clearly stated by saying "I do". But she lied. And if this woman who pretended to love me for who I was never loved me genuinely then really, there's no hope. If the one woman on Earth who is capable of genuinely loving me hasn't come knocking on my door by now then it is pretty obvious that she doesn't exist and never will exist. So what's the point?