Guys you are not reading the thread fully. He lacks self confidence, has no money for therapy and has social anxiety issues. He is struggling, and writing an email like this is his way of releasing some of the hurt he is so trying to get rid of. So stop criticizing and posting the vanilla advice. He is using this forum as an outlet to express himself because he has nothing else at this time.
He wants to move forward, but his brain (due to mental issues) can't as easily as the rest of us.