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It's been almost 4 months since you dumped me for that arrogant f***, you had everything with me, i loved you, i did everything for you, i really cared for you and you just dumped me for no reason... I hope your rebound a** breaks your heart and you come crying to me so i can break it even harder you selfish immature, arrogant b*tch
To the guy who stole my girlfriend away,
Dear stupid f***, i really really hate you and i'd really like to get a gun and shoot that stupid smile of your face, it's your fault she dumped me, you were chasing her before she decided to dump me... But that won't last, you are arrogant, selfish, get angry very quickly and are f*cking ugly, she won't see it now but just wait until the honeymoon period is over...
Yours truly,
Your Death
He didn't steal her, she left. But I feel you, I've been where you are.Quote:
Originally Posted by NjoyStick [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]
4 months now my friend, it is time to start moving on and working on getting better. The time you still spend angry over this is time she is now stealing from you. Time to get out and meet some new people :)
You're right, she left me, but for someone she was never interested in....
It's been almost 4 months now since she dumped me for that loser, time to move on =D
Thanks Cerby!
TELL ME WHAT YOU WANT! stop ignoring me! u cant say what you said less than a month ago then do this! ur making me go crazy!!!! those stupid girls your partying with are nothing but skanks, oh but im the bad one... yea check yourself.
i don't want you back, but i want you to want me back and me telling you to f*** off repeatedly.
my only wish for you is that someday you love someone and they put you through everything you've done to me!!!!!
you don't deserve your Michelin star back!!!!
*Currently i'm sitting here at 3:08, Sunday July 8th 2012 writing this to you. I promise myself to send this to both your emails tomorrow, Monday July 9th 2012, after we have met up and if you tell me you don't want to give us another chance. Please hear me out in this, maybe you might understand what I spoke to you about. If you're reading this and it's a month on from today, then you gave us another chance and just made the best decision you'll ever make*
You will never find someone who loved you the way I did. I waited half a year with you on my mind everyday until we eventually started going out. I helped you through your heavy emotional times for the first half year of our relationship. I stood by you, I helped you, I cheered you up whenever I had the opportunity. Doing this whilst all my friends told me I was mad for staying with such an emotional wreck. Whilst they told me to break up with you and find someone better. I told them no, I told them you was the love of my life and that I wanted to stand beside you and make you happier. Remember those times you used to cry on my shoulder as I held you? Crying because you thought I deserved better. Do you remember that? Did I leave you? Did I leave you when you used to tell me that I "Don't need to deal with this" and "You'll be so much happier with another girl that isn't as insecure as me", No I didn't. It didn't matter how emotional you was, how upset you was and how much you used to tell me i'd be happier without you. You know why? Love. We hadn't even told each other that yet had we, but I knew that I loved you right from the start. I knew no matter what that I was going to stand beside you.
Remember a few months later when we walked down that alley way after college, you started crying and told me your big secret from the past and showed me your arm? Remember when you cried and said "You must think i'm such an emotional freak" and how you was scared that I'd not want to be involved with you anymore and leave you. Did I leave you? No, I didn't. That was your past and I once again stuck beside you and made you the happiest you'd ever been. I never judged you, I never held grudges after little arguments we would have. You know why? Relationships can't be 100% perfect. I embraced the highs and the lows, I accepted that it was natural, I accepted that sometimes you would get mad at me for things I did because you loved me and cared for me. The same goes for me, the times we had disagreements, little arguments, are not because we were enemies, not because we didn't like each other, but because we loved and cared for each other.
Remember every month of our relationship, when you had period pains for 2 weeks at a time? Remember when you felt so shit you couldn't sleep, when you kept crying and when your mood swings were beyond ridiculous? Remember when i'd have a conversation with you and you'd seem as though you didn't care, and you'd disagree with pretty much everything I said, and how if I said something you wasn't happy with you'd get the ump with me and act weird towards me? I remember how I felt sometimes it was best for me to stay away most times you felt like that just incase I said or did something wrong and upset you. But did I? No, I still spent time with you, I still tried my hardest to make you feel better, just knowing that it wasn't the REAL you that would get moody. I knew you couldn't help it, and yes sometimes it annoyed me, but I went past that and waited for the real you to come back because I cared for you and knew it would come back. I did this every month of our relationship because I was in love with you.
What about the times when you used to make remarks about me not having as many friends as you? Even though previously in the relationship I opened up to you about it and how it used to sometimes get me down that I didn't have loads of friends. And yes, that may have been a little remark, but it still hurt. Then when you knew it annoyed me you claimed you was only joking and said "oh cheer up you tart" Did I hold a grudge on you for that? Did I leave you for that? No. It hurt when you said it but I forgave you for it the next day because I knew you would soon realise you made a mistake in saying it. People make mistakes, it happens, I got over it.
What about the times we'd be with friends, or we'd be with your family and you'd give little digs "Oh, yeah it's only adam he's weird" and i'd just have to smile and brush it off. What about the times you was with my family, and you'd bring up a conversation about how you had heard that I was quiet and weird in school. Once again, I had to smile and brush it off. I never moaned at you for those or held grudges against you for it. Once again I accepted that you'll make mistakes sometimes, or say things that don't make me happy. But then i'd forgive you for it within a day.
What about that time I got too drunk at matt's and passed out whilst you wasn't there? That was a mistake I made, and the next day you was so upset and disappointed in me, remember we went over the park and you was arguing with me? I knew you did that because you cared about me and you was worried. I didn't at any point think "Ergh, she's pissing me off, can't be bothered dealing with this" I knew it was just because you cared about me, and I accepted that and allowed a couple of days for things to go back to normal.
What about the time you got too drunk at matt's before I was even there? Did I ever leave your side at any given point on that night? No, I didn't. I arrived and you was out of it. I was looking forward to spending time with my friends that night actually. I think the most I even said to Matt was "how are you mate long time no see" then i spent the rest of the night looking after you, I took your heels off so you didn't fall over, I made sure you got up and down the stairs safely every time. I sat in the freezing cold garden with you shivering whilst you was being sick in the garden bag. I then helped you inside in order to get you warm, and I told people that were laughing at you to **** off and leave you alone. All that I did for you and I get rewarded with your mum telling me she's disappointed in me. Was I annoyed at you at all? No. You know why? because I knew you wouldn't have intentionally done that, and I knew it was a mistake that you had made. And yes, after multiple conversations with your mum on the phone I did get frustrated, and maybe I went a bit too far with deleting pictures from my phone. As soon as I did that I knew it was a mistake myself, and I wasn't happy with myself, but that was how I dealt with it. I acknowledged it was a mistake and forgot about all of it. So why is it that everything that happened with you, I was able to leave it behind and acknowledge they were mistakes, and never hold grudges on you for it. But the moment I told you when we was down your road that I got a bit angry and deleted pictures off of my phone, and even though I apologized for it you still couldn't let that go? And I know you didn't let it go because you brought it up in Costa 2 weeks ago, mentioning how it pissed you off so much and how it was the 'biggest **** you ever' Well it wasn't actually, I just needed to relieve some stress. Oh and one thing I never mentioned, every single thing on that old phone was backed up on their online database. Even my very first text I sent you.
So why is it that after everything we've both been through, everything you've ever done that has upset me, hurt me, i've always forgotten about it because I know they were just mistakes. But when I get ill and I don't act myself, things with us spiral downhill. Things up until I was ill were so perfect, we were so happy together. The first and second week things were still fine. But that third week when it hit me hard, when I felt so alone at home, just sitting infront of the TV all day, every day yes, i'll admit that it made me do things I wouldn't usually do. I missed you, I missed my life, I missed being able to socialize with other people. You was out every night, always texting me saying how fun it was going to be, yes i'll admit I was jealous. I hated the fact that I couldn't go out like I had planned, hated that I couldn't spend nights out with you, nights out with friends, meet new people. Everyday you'd text me about how good it was and I wanted to just be able to join you but I couldn't. Knowing everyone was having fun and I wasn't pissed me off, I think it would with anyone. And yes, sometimes I said things to you because I wanted to get a reaction from you, I wanted to know that you were thinking of me, but I didn't want to come across as being a needy boyfriend by asking "Are you thinking of me?" so instead I used ways around it, for example one you'll remember "I might turn my phone off for a week or so" Did you really think I would turn my phone off and not want to speak to you? Of course I wouldn't. I said that because I was hoping you would reply with "Oh no don't :( I'll miss you" but in reality I guess it backfired, and that was the start of it turning weird for us. From the moment I sent that, I knew you thought I wasn't as interested in the relationship, and that was the biggest mistake i've made. Of course I was interested in you, our absence apart was killing me, eating me away inside.
From here on you stopped telling me you loved me and missed me first, this was so painful for me. This ended up making me more and more paranoid as each day went on. You thought I had trust issues, right? I would never in a million years think you would have been unfaithful, I was just worried that you didn't want me around anymore. The 4th week I was ill I spent talking to you with fear that I would lose you. I knew you was annoyed with me, and i'll admit, everything I did was a mistake. By then I knew you was annoyed with me whenever I spoke to you. Everything I had done, every mistake I had made over the past weeks made you think of me as a source of negativity, i'm right aren't I? Before I was ill, you could come to me whatever time of the day, everyday and you would know we'd be happy together. Every moment we spent would be another memory to etch into your mind, you loved spending time with me. But since getting ill that turned around. You started going clubbing and now THAT is your source of positivity. You would spend the day listening to me spurting out negativity, saying how i'm bored, saying how I hate being ill, moping around in a sense and then you could go to the club with your friends and let your hair down and soak up the positivity like a sponge. You feared that our relationship would stay like this permanently didn't you? You feared that we would be arguing, and that we wouldn't have positive times like before I was ill.
You know when we started meeting up again when I was better, you know you was constantly feeling strange vibes off of me? almost like an aura of negativity? You know how you felt I had changed, and how you kept thinking about it every day, how it was eating you away that things wouldn't go back? You know why I wasn't the same Adam as before, even though I claimed to be. Because before I was ill the thought of you leaving me had never crossed my mind. Every action I did, every word I spoke oozed with positivity and confidence, I could totally be myself, the Adam you fell in love with. Everything I did was done with pleasure and confidence because I never had a doubt in my mind that "I don't know if I should say or do that incase she gets the ump with me and things go weird" I could do everything care free. I could laugh with you, laugh at you, embarrass you, ask you out anywhere any time of the day, whenever I wanted without thinking I dont want to come across as needy, or irritate her". After Costa you told me you wasn't sure if you loved me the same, and you gave me one last chance. Was it because you associated me with the negative feelings? Your friends, alcohol and clubs have now become your source of positivity that I was once was haven't they? You never gave it that chance to go back to how it always was. We met up alone twice after I was ill. each time I was full of fear that you wasn't interested in me anymore. I oozed with insecurities and negativity didn't i? Relationships are not always perfect 100% of the time, sometimes they have dips/holes in them, these are natural and when given the chance to improve on, end up making the relationship stronger.
Each time you saw me, you could tell I was still the same fearful boy and that something felt very different. Each time you saw me, you was thinking about how it wouldn't go back, then you would go out to a club and have an amazing night, you'd get closer to your mates too. This is where you thought that grass would be greener on the other side, right? I guess you fell into the trap of 'How I feel about you now, is how I feel about you' You thought about how I made you feel and it was imprinted into your head, whether consciously or sub-consciously that that was how it would always stay. I'm correct aren't I now you think deeply about it. What about when you start back at college and summer is over. Will the grass still be greener?
Have a think about the situation of this. Is it me who caused this, or was it the situation? If I had no negative vibes, if I still oozed the positivity and confidence, ask yourself now. Would you even be reading this right now? If I was able to come out with you a month and a bit back, to the parties, to the clubs, if we were able to visit the seaside, galleries, go shopping, when EVERYTHING was exactly the same as how it had always been, if I had absolutely no reason to worry, no reason to send you texts seeking for your validation, no reason to ask if you still thought about me, would this situation we are in now even have occurred? I personally believe the answer is no we wouldn't. I would have been one of your sources of positivity, and you would have loved it. You would love the fact that you could go out to clubs and have fun, then you could just simply come see me during the next day and get that same positive feeling. And that we could have gone out places together as a couple like parties we have been to in the past. You could dance with your friends have fun, dance over to me, kiss me, hug me, flirt with me.
This month when I was ill shows that our relationship isn't always 100% perfect, but I know that our lack of communication, in a sense it was a long distance relationship, and the fear I had after our Costa chat was all over-reactions. I know it could have easily been worked on and it would have faded away and we would look back and think "omg remember that? that was such a shitty moment but i'm so glad it's gone now though :)"
I guess if you're reading this on Monday the 9th July 2012, you never wanted to give it that time and chance to go away, and to come back to the old us a month and a bit ago. But I'll just finish this off by letting you know that I do love you, I do care about you, and the past month even though I may have seemed as though I wasn't as interested, I was in fact more interested than ever. I had a secluded illness and I acted differently and made mistakes. It's part of human nature to make mistakes and learn from them. But if you don't want to forget about the mistakes and go back to the old us, then who knows, maybe within the next few weeks/months it'll hit you, and you'll know exactly what I was talking about here.
Bewsh... I think you shouldn't send her the first part of the e-mail. It just sounds like you're trying to make her feel guilty (which I'm sure you'll deny was your intention - I'm just saying that that is what it sounds like). Which is not cool and it will not make her want to come back to you. If anything, it will make her want to stop reading and she will get irritated and annoyed. I'm telling you this because I've had one of my exes send me these types of things, and all it did was to make me feel aggravated, miserable, extremely angry at him and it made me see him as a pathetic loser. Basically, it just made me want to stay the hell away from him for ever. Funny thing is that he was actually trying to get me back... doing it COMPLETELY wrong.
I'd start the e-mail from the part where you talk about the illness, and how it went downhill from there (I think it's the 9th paragraph - delete the first 2 sentences).
Also... it's "you were", not "you was" :-).
Yeah the first part of it was written with mixed emotions of anger and sadness. She always made it out that she never did anything wrong in the relationship, only brought my things up and got super defensive if I ever brought hers up. But yeah I re-read it and do agree with you. I've now removed the first 9 and a bit paragraphs, will send it to her tomorrow as proper closure because that's what I feel I need to do. Closure then improve myself.Quote:
Originally Posted by searock [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]
Thanks for the advice
No problem :-). You sound like a sweet and sensible guy, I'm sure that whatever happens, you'll be fine in the end :-).
i love you. i miss you. i wish it didn't have to end this way. it's taking every ounce of my self control not to contact you ... it's so hard to go from talking nearly every day for 4 years to absolutely nothing. no more "good night, sweet dreams", "good morning, have a great day and i love you !". the silence is killing me.
it doesn't really feel like we're over for good .. i keep looking at my phone and expecting to see your name pop up, but deep down i know it's not going to happen. i'm so lost right now.
i guess all i wanna say is, thank you. thank you for showing me that i am capable of loving someone with my whole heart, and thank you for showing me what it's like to feel truly loved by someone. i honestly didn't believe in real, awe inspiring, all-encompassing, heart-enriching, mind-expanding love until i met you. but i have experienced that because of you.
i will always carry you in my heart.
Because beating my head on this wall of stubborn pride is killing me. I just can't keep waiting for you to decidecide WE have suffered far too long AND you're willing to put your pride second and admit to your family
that we made a horrible mistake and you want us to be together? Why would you lie to me at this point?
Yes; I said the words. I guess I'll hear them forever. I miss our friendship most of all, very few know me that well. I know you'd hate them, lol but you should listen to three songs. Hinder - Everybody Knows, Stone Sour-Through Glass and of course, Nickelback...Trying Not to Love You.
I can't even be mad you, silly bastard
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Originally Posted by Cerby [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]
Classic cerby
Ps send me back my Celine Dion cds ya skanky hoe.
Not you cerby, my bitch of an ex who is now pumping my brother. Sad times
I honestly can't believe that in our 3 years together. When you told me that you loved me, and I was stuck with you for the rest of your life, you didn't mean it and at the first opportunity you walked away all so easily, and then weeks later you was out on the pull and have even 7 weeks later got into another relationship despite claiming when we split that you wanted to be on your own for a bit to rediscover yourself. Compulsive liar... I loved the person you was. Kind, caring, considerate, loving, and I now hate the person you have become. Selfish, thoughtless and hurtful.