Yes, yes and yes.... BUT let me play devils advocate for just a second....don't kill me everyone......WHAT IF.....just maybe, I was the one to break his cycle? He had never been with anyone like me...slightly above his social class, educated, a loving caring Mom, someone who really cared about him...and showed it. WHAT IF, he thought I was the one who COULD break his cycle....but was afraid to get too close as his friend said because he didn't want to get hurt. WHAT IF his flight response kicked in when he said all the hurtful things to me...wanting to push me away. WHAT IF I showed him that not all women are the same...and he was seriously considering a relationship with me...as his friend said......but just wasn't ready or wasn't sure how or if it would work out? He may have had all these doubts in his mind......maybe he doesn't know how to have a normal relationship......he did to me what he knows and stepping out of that pattern was so foreign to him it scared him. I didn't deserve how he treated me at all, I will not defend that, but I am really feeling that he did want me, that he did have feelings for me and I am the one who ended up letting him down by being a bitch.
es, yes, yes....I know, I am throwing out too many WHAT IF's and I know I sound ridiculous and I know you guys are gonna tear me apart for being gullible and naive and just plain bat shit crazy....but I was with him, I heard what he said, I saw how he acted....BUT I also was WITH him, I saw how he looked at me, I felt how he hugged me and I felt in my heart there was something there.....I have a tendency to follow my heart.....