My current gf takes anti-depressents to keep her mood stable, not so much about depression anymore. She has been on them for far longer than I've known her and honestly I don't know if they're what is leveling her mood or if she just simply doesn't need them anymore but uses them for the placebo effect.
Either way, whether you're on or off, talk to your doctor about how you feel now that you're off. You might just want to stay on them a bit longer until you feel ready to kick them. Based on your recent posts I don't think you're in the right state of mind yet, one of your posts reminded me of DH from a few months back.