Should I Stay or should I Go?
Hi all. Well I keep going back and forth with myself about this. I can't seem to make up my mind. I got married when I was 19. At the time my parents' relationship was very tumultuous and my father left my mom. I was very broken because it affected my whole family very negatively. Around that time I met my husband online and we got married eight months later.
Over the past three years, I have realized that we don't have much in common but he loves me a lot. We have been through a lot of hard times together, including being homeless and an unexpected pregnancy. He gets frustrated with me easily and I get frustrated with him easily...we argue a lot, but for the most part, I know he loves me. He is also very hard working and he is always continuing his education. I admire him so much for taking care of me and my daughter, but I just don't love him. I have tried to, because I don't want to break his heart, but I don't have romantic feelings for my husband.
There have been times where I have met people online who I do have a lot in common with and it makes me sad because I feel like I'll never be with anyone I truly love. Someone who is my best friend. I have a friend I have who is so fun...he makes me laugh, we listen to the same music and watch the same movies...we talk a lot all the time, and I always think, "What if I had waited and found someone like him?" I don't have a romantic relationship with this friend. He is happily engaged. But he does make me wonder what it could have been like to be with him. On the other hand, I have a stable life with my husband, and I don't know if it is wise to sacrifice that in pursuit of love that I may or may not find. Any advice please? I just want someone's opinion. Thanks.