Do you think this decade has been utter bullshit?
Not to sound like a negative nelly or anything, but I think this whole decade has sucked for more reasons than one. Personally, these past several years have been marred with loneliness and modest amounts of depression. It all depends. Sometimes, I feel okay, but I'm not 100% happy any more and I think it's because I have lost my self-esteem. In general, I have not really enjoyed this decade all that much. 2002 to 2009 sucked as well, so I remember when 2009 was almost over, I wanted 2010 to begin as soon as possible. However, I do not remember much of 2000 and 2001 at all. Some of the years yielded a few good moments, but it was mostly a lot of grief.
I suffer from anxiety and find it hard to talk to people. I've had quite the history of being misunderstood by people in the most horrible way. Unfortunately, social services don't help me any longer. They are all jerks. It's hard to trust people like that now anyway. Support workers don't answer to you either. They are employed to do a job, but I think they get used as stool pigeons. Not having support does suck though, if one wants to achieve things. It meant I missed out on a lot of film work, but I wanted to try to give up doing extra work and try to land small speaking parts instead. It's not just that. It's good to join interest groups too. But of course, "support workers" will blab about what you are doing, who you are meeting and whatnot.
My sister has a lot of issues too, also due to social services. She has two sons, but she hasn't seen one of her kids in over 5 years. She still gets to see one of her sons, in a supervised setting, but her ex is an arse and he is forcing her to go to a place near his area to see the kid now, that is rather far away from where our parents reside. But it is all very awkward, because social workers are always in full support of his demands. So if he says he wants this or that, they normally grant him his every wish. The sheriffs are corrupt too and barely act fair. My sister ended up being diagnosed with a functional neurological disorder earlier this year and I'm sure stress levels played a big part in that happening. Unfortunately, her lawyer died recently after being ill for quite a while. She only just found out about his passing. The timing is not good, but trying to get a replacement to cover her case when all of this commotion started years ago, is not easy.
My other sister who is older than us, well she lost her ex to suicide because social workers made up garbage about him and he lived over the bridge. I'm in Edinburgh, so he was across in Fife. He hanged himself last year because they made out he wasn't to see my sister or their son. I'm not sure what it was about, but he did that and my sister and his best friend (who my sister has a son with, too) could not even go to his memorial service. I'm sure he was duped somehow, but it's very sad. My nephew is 3 now. I'd known the guy since I worked in Comet. He was the delivery guy. We would drive out to people's houses and deliver their goods.
Overall, I think this decade isn't going to be remembered for a God damn thing decent. I know that after this year is up, we still have all of 2019 to live through, so maybe it may turn out good. But I know from my luck, that I cannot see 2019 being any good either. And while I hope I'm wrong, knowing my luck, it's bound to be lousy. But I just wish I could rewind my life all the way back to 2002 and do everything again, but do it right. Of course, that's just not possible.
Has the 2010s sucked up to now for you too?
