You don’t have to go back to anything
You can keep being happy and at peace with yourselve all along, all the time just like you are now too.
You can do so during any interaction with women during relationships or no relationships or whatever.
What keeps you from being at peace in a relationship and or after too?
What keeps you from being at peace wir yourself on a first date with someone you find interesting?
Th funny thing is the old self still has limiting beliefs in place. „I’ll never get a girlfriend“ „no one will like me“ all of those.
But the best part is. Even if they are true (which ofc they are not) that still doesn’t mean you can’t enjoy female company or meeting new persons or women in your live. And it certainly doesn’t mean you can’t have inner peace while doing so.
And the even better part is: women notice this. For them meeting someone who is at peace with who he is as a person and as a man, who knows what he wants, who cares for her and feels for her but does NOT depend on her, man that shit turns them on crazy