some poems i wrote way back when

these are some poems when i was still trying to date my first love


"You have her
Why must you hurt her?
She loves you
Why must you pain her?
I love her more than she'll ever know
And because she loves you
I must keep it to my self
Because its the only way i can stay sane
its the only way I can stay whole
Because
You have her and she loves YOU
Why must you hurt her....
Why must you pain her...
Yet still...she loves you
And not me"

"Whenever i see her beautiful face
Its like someone is pumping my heart
And flooding my system with love
The love is a drug
Flowing throughout my veins
And I'm utterly addicted
The only thing on my mind is her
But i don't know how to act in the face of this love
It tears my heart thinking of her
With someone else
But if shes happy I'll grin and bear it"

she was with this guy for like 4 years before I met her and he went to be a marine and went to iraq but he got really possesive, and diditn want her even talking to me because we were the closest friends. to th epoint of just before dating but she never was unfaithful and he didnt trust her. but i digress these were how i felt when he kept being a dick.