I had an emotional affair and I am not proud to admit it, but I did. It was about a month when I finally ended it before it escalated even more & I confessed it to my husband bc I felt he deserved to know the truth: I was having feelings for my ex again.
When I told my husband, he wanted to read the emails & I let him read it. I did tell this guy that I loved him & that's pretty much what my husband focuses on for every argument we had lately. All I can do lately is apologize over & over again. I did not make any excuses, because I knew I was wrong. But I feel like he's trying to throw our marriage away. It's so unfair, bc I always forgiven him for all his mistakes when he used to be physically abusive but now he's emotionally abusing me more than ever.
We separated & I haven't heard from him. We have a 4 year old daughter & he doesn't even make time for her. He's on & off about this whole thing. He says that one day he wants to work it out then the next he's all angry about it & calls me a b*tch & slut.
I have fought to spend quality time with him for the past few years, yet in the past couple of weeks he's been pulling money out of our account (even though his excuse was so we didn't spend too much money) or he's been out with his guy friends (even though he's been telling me he's been tired a lot from work). I have fought to save our marriage b4 this whole emotional affair started. I wasn't even looking for anybody in the first place, it's just that my ex was there to talk my problems out with (which I know was probably not such a good idea). But for once in my life, I begin to learn to love myself & that's why I told my ex that I loved him, for making me feel special.
Right now, I'm so heartbroken from the way my husband is handling our problems. He's trying to get back at me by doing things like going to strip clubs, not calling me for weeks, & living life as though I don't exist. What should I do? Did I deserve this?
