What would you sacrifice for no confidence in a woman?
I'm 20, young, 5'6 and 117 lbs. I like to work out and take care of my appearance. I have blonde hair and a decent face, in my opinion at least. I'm a good student and have a lot of intellectual interests. Though everything might look good on paper, I'm a terribly lonely and a bored mess.
Also, I'm horribly serious and can't flirt for the life of me. In the past, I've had friends take my computer and chat/ flirt with guys jokingly and its exciting--but I when I do it alone I can't think of anything to say and just get bored.
More times than not I'm just not in the mood to put myself out there.
The only men who have brought me out of my negative little world are charismatic and bold---the opposite of me.
Every guy I've been with has said I'm too unaffectionate, but really I just subconsciously distance my feelings to avoid getting hurt. I don't know how to be emotionally available, except for the very few (very few) people I'm comfortable around and I'm not really even sure if I clearly express it to them.
So, would you sacrifice someone who is unaffectionate,moody, sarcastic, introverted, unconfident women if she was also loyal, genuinely nice (at least I hope so), occasionally sarcastically funny/ goofy, intelligent, told I'm charismatic but its largely an act..?