my date ,failure,first love

Hello,every body,
Nice meet you all here.
I am not new here ,
I see the post months long
I was frauded by a girl,
she said she would never love me,
but she said she would treat me as her very best friend,
but that just like some comfortable words,
just after I told her I very liked her,
uncertain feelings,
but she changed her mind,told me to leave her,
she told her she had boyfriend,
but she told me not 2 days ago,
I feel quite badly,
I send massive short message by mobil,angry,painful words,
she may feel I am mad ,she told me it was hardly acceptable,
I was in a painful course for 1 year,
I hate her,
gradually never feel love her,
I know she was wrong in many areas to me,
I really wantto kill her, for she hurted me so deeply,
but I know it will disobey the law,
I know she was not the best girl I want and I want a best girl
better better than her,
she was a virgin,
a able girl,
kind hearted
very easy to commmunicate with,
not to heavy not to low in hight,
I would just love one one love me best and I would give my first sex to her
I donot care her a beauty or not ,
it is just fake,
I think,
of course ,
beauty is good,
but really not the most important,
I am 24 year old guy.
Thank you for reading.