This summer I've gradually gotten to know a girl when i've gone out drinking or to house party's at my best friends house in the city. One of the nights we went out she offered that i could stay in one of her house mates beds for the night and then sleep in hers when she left for work in the morning instead of staying on my friends couch. Nothing happened between us that night but i couldn't stop thinking about her for ages.
I'm now back up in the city for college and got invited to another house party where she was practically the only person i knew there. I sent her a text offering that she could stay at my place if she was stuck and she said she would. I went to the party and we got along great,then about about 1 o'clock in the morning i saw her with another guys arms around her laughing with each other so i said "screw it" and i just up and left.
Just as i got home i got a call from her asking where i was and stupidly enough i headed back. I rang the doorbell and the guy she was with answered the door and just slammed it in my face again when he saw me. I felt so angry and confused and i just walked away again and went home to bed. I then was woken by the sound of my doorbell at 3 o'clock and she was standing at the door asking for a place to stay. I told her she could have my bed and I'd sleep on the floor but she wouldn't hear of it and told me to get into the bed with her as well because it was too cold.
I drifted off to sleep again and woke up with her arms around me, and as the night went on, there was a lot of shifting over and back, my arms around her, her arms around me, until i felt her hold one of my hands up to her breast. Being someone who never acts on anything like this, I said to hell with it and started touching her. She started breathing heavily and moaning a little and after a while she said "thats very bold, james".
I froze. The words ran over and over again in my head til they finally registered and i just pulled my hand away and rolled over and crossed my arms under me. She continued to spoon with me though, or to try to at least and kept forcing her ass into my crotch. She finally left at 2pm that day and sent me a text a few days later asking if i was alright, that she hadn't heard from me in a while and i snapped at her.
I said "I'm fine" and she replied "fair enough". I then apologized for snapping at her and said that I wasn't myself (even though its her fault that I'm not). She then asked me to go to the cinema with her and two of my friends but i turned her down. I couldn't stop thinking about her and i pretty much still can't, especially not after that night.
I told one of my friends and she says that she was just leading me on and to just tell her to go to hell but i cant exactly boycott her because my best friend and a load of my other friends who i met her through are gone to Germany and shes hanging around with the ones i have left and shes going to be around my other friends when they get back in February.
It's driving me mental what to do, it's almost like I'm obsessed with her and nothing obviously meant anything to her and i need some solid advice on what to do because its driving me crazy
