Not over yet! i need some advice
[/I] Well... how do i start?... me and my ex, let's call him "Josh" , have been gowin out 4 a year, what a wonderful year... i was leavin in another country and i met him, we started as friends, but became really close, and started dating, we had a perfect relationship (dat was my point of view), well to make it short, i had 2 come back 2 my country, and we were away from eachother 4 a month, dat was d largest month in my entire life.... well.. so he planned on comin ova, i waited 4 dat time so bad, i need it him close 2 me. d day came and i saw him again, i kissed him, huged him and said 2 him dat i neva wanted 2 b away from him again, he said d same, on christmas day he proposed, and i said "yes" it was d happiest day in my life... after a few months he had 2 go back 2 his country, so i cried and cried 4 nearly 2 months b4 dat happened.... well maybe i knew dat i had 2 prepare 4 wat was 2 come... after he left, he started no caring bout, not callin or anything, he would only call once a week (if i was lucky), so 1 day he said " look i need a break" and i said "i don't want a break" ... after a few minutes arguing i finally accepted d break, d day after i was online on MSN and i changed my nickname 2 "life is beautiful, enjoy it!" and he came online and saw my new nickname, he said " i c dat it looks like u r bette off without me" , and i said "don't b silly, and don't act like a baby, u know I LOVE YOU".... well he called straight away and we agreed 2 call off d break... dat week past and we talked again and he said " i'm not sure if we should be 2gether?, and i just got sick of it, and said 2 him, u know wat, u r just fooling around with me, and i won't accept dat... so our engagement is over... after dat he acted all depressed and all sad, i felt bad and called him 2 say i was sorry and 2 say I still love you, but he said it doesn't matter now, it's 2 late... so as you can imagine, i cried and cried 4 a week, i lost like 10 kilos and i was so depressed dat i didn't want 2 leave my house, dat week my mum just got mad at me 4 being like dat, so she said, "u've got 2 move on" so i tried and i went back 2 work... after not even a month i found out dat he was dating dis 15 years old girl, i thought "dis can't b happening".... but it was... it's being 5 months since dat, and i still think of him, weneva i hear d song dat we said we were going 2 play in our weeding, weneva i c a special place where we used 2 go, or weneva i say or act like i used 2 wen he was around, i know i have 2 move on, but i still can't do it... it hurts so bad, just 2 think dat he neva really loved me... but well... wat can i do now? i need 2 move on, and i need some advice... please give me some advice...
