Light at the End of the Tunnel!!!
Hi to everyone. Happy Valentines Day. Couldn't have picked a better day to post to your forum. I've read many of your posts and have felt for all. I'm writing this in hopes that perhaps it will help somebody deal with the loss of someone they loved and still do love.
I was, or i thought I was, so very much in love with the person I shared my life with. We shared our innermost feelings with each other for almost 4 years. We had our ups and our downs but otherwise things went well. We planned on marriage, we planned on kids. We planned on sharing the rest of our lives with one another. I was in love. We cried together about loses in our lives. Sometimes we just cuddled up together and didn't say a word. Felt like I was on top of the world. Then came home that one afternoon and everything that was hers was gone. Everything. Except for the rings i gave her and other jewelry... promptly placed on the nightstand beside our bed. The white teddy bear with pink bows that I gave her our first Valentines Day placed next to her rings... the teddy bear that told her how much I loved her. No note. No letter. No sign at all to where she was or where she was going. No clues at all. My heart broke in two. Called everyone she knew. No answers to where she may have went. That night I thought it would be the end of my world. All sense of control was gone. I cried. And I cried. What did I do wrong to deserve this? Didn't think I would make the night... nevermind the next day or the day after. I made it through the night though with the help of a very close friend. Thank God for him. I don't know where I'd be today if he wasn't there. All this happened 2 months ago to the day. I was at the end, or at least I thought I was until I gave an old girlfriend of mine a call. We talked off and on through the years... just kinda goin on with each other bout what we were doing and comparing our relationships. We dated but never got very serious. We thought we'd do better if we were just friends. And friends we were. Well am I ever glad we stayed in contact and stayed civil to each other because today marks our one month anniversay and I can honestly tell you I haven't been happier in my life. She's always been there for me and I've always been there for her. No matter what... unconditional. Over all these years, happiness was looking my right in the face and I didn't recognize it till I took a fall.... and she was there and picked me up. She is the kindest person I know and now I'm at home alone writing you all this because I just got home from taking her to the hospital with appendicitis. She knows I'll be there with her tomorrow. I'll always be with her. So to end this post, I'm going to say to anyone here that it doesn't matter how bad you feel, how confused you are, how much hate, love, and despair you are dealing with, there is always light at the end of the tunnel. There is always that one special person out there that is so right for you. As much as you may feel that you lost that one person that was perfect for you... that person WASN'T perfect for you. If they were, then you would have been perfect for them. Time mends all wounds. Some faster than others but nonetheless all it is is time, and all it takes is that right person to come along to make the whole world of difference. And sometimes that person is looking right at you and you don't realize it. Trust your gut feelings. And don't be scared to make the first move. Regrets are things you can't live with. Mistakes are things you can. Happy Valentines Day to you all.
