My gf is pregnant and I'm not happy with the relationship
Hi
I've been with my gf for 1 1/2 years. We've been through so many breakups and obstacles but somehow we still stay together. I don't know what's the problem. Is it me or her? But the sad thing is, so many things has happened. My mom doesn't want to see her anymore. My band disbanded because they said I've changed because of her. My office mates said she's bringing me down. She is aware of all this and when I tell her this, it hurts her and she said I'm being influenced by them. But the truth I fight with her so much that I've become such an angry man. I abuse her verbally by shouting and using swear words (not at her directly) and this is not the person I was before.
Now she's pregnant. I am happy to know that I'm a father but we fought again and we said so many things to hurt each other. She even said that she will never let me see my child.
I don't know what should I do now. When I want to be a responsible bf and father, she said I'm giving her hope with the relationship. I told her honestly, it seems that we can't solve our relationship problems but I'd like to be there for her.
Yet I still fight with her and it's stressing me out. I don't want it to become any worse. She's pregnant and her mood swings will turn me off. I will stress her out and this is not good. I'm stuck in a situation where if I stay on with her, we will fight more and more and perhaps destroy each other. If I don't stay with her, I don't how she would survive as she is having issues with her job and paying off an apartment and loans she can't afford.
What should I do? :(