He is taking this time to sort thru his feelings and emotions, but he said it is over between him and his ex. He is sad about it and also about us as he knows his confusion could cause the failure of our relationship. He said he does miss me and is truly sorry for hurting me.
I told him this chapter of our relationship is over and I am completely heartbroken and I need to heal myself. I told him I need to get over him and until we both have healed from our emotional wounds we won't be able to start over again. I still have hope that it will work out between us in the future.
His 40th birthday is coming up in May. I was planning a small dinner party but now I am going to forget about it. We will just go to dinner on his birthday. I predict it will be awkward though since I told him I need to get over him. In my mind that means we are not really together.