My unrequited love story :/
Hi. ^^ So I just felt like telling someone this story... I'm pretty sure I've never actually FULLY told anyone... and also I'm just curious as to others' opinions on it...
I hope someone will read everything and reply. x)
P.S. Any dialogue was translated from French because I live in Switzerland and they speak French here... And before anyone asks, I speak French fluently so no, there were no misunderstandings caused by a language barrier or anything... Sooo also, there may be things I'll have trouble translating properly since some words don't exist in English...
P.P.S. Yes I am calling everyone by who they were cosplayed as because I'm definitely not using their real names and just think it's easier.
So it all started in April of 2012. At that time I was 15 years old and still a virgin with no experience (except some kissing) but I was looking for a guy to have fun with, y'know... pretty much just to have sex with (which I know some people will disapprove of ^^; ). I just didn't want a relationship or to fall in love, just have funnnn. :P
So I love manga and Japanese culture and that year I decided that I would go, cosplayed, to a convention with two of my friends for a day.
We went, it was great. I met a lot of nice people there, one in particular that really caught my eye, a tall guy who was cosplayed... So cute, I wanted to take him to the bathroom and...you know, haha. In other words, I was instantly attracted to him...
Whatever so when I'm at conventions, I hug everyone, especially if they're cosplayed as a character I like. x) So I went and asked him for a hug; I was so nervous... >< So I hugged him and then I ran off. xD Then of course I saw him multiple times and so every time I would go and hug him, haha. Once, he was in front of some escalators and I went to hug him and he was like "hold on..." and nudged us onto the escalator and was like "I'm kidnapping you ^^" and left everyone else at the bottom of the escalator... It was cute. ^_^
So finally by the end of the day I built up my courage and asked for his facebook (wooow I know such a difficult thing to do)...and he gave it to me. :D
The day after, or a few days later I can't remember, I decided I was going to talk to him... I was so nervous, he was so intimidating to me, I don't know why... x_x So we started talking and it was great, just perfect, I was so happy. Like we really got along so well!
After a few days of talking we really wanted to see each other in RL. ^^ So we decided we would go somewhere together... Of course when I asked my mom she said no because she didn't want me to go anywhere alone with a 20 year old -_- (he was 19 at the time) so my best friend decided to come along so I could see him... hihi
With my luck, we ended up not seeing each other cause he wasn't feeling good... :(
As a side note, I really must tell you a few more details. When we were talking those first few days, he was real sweet, he would really talk to me about himself quite a bit and he would say things like "I know this is dumb but I really can't wait to see you" and "I know we just met but I feel like we've known each other for years"... ;_;
Also something else that's important to the story, I met another guy who was also cosplayed at the con and while browsing photos found a picture of him and commented on it something like "Sasuke! :D" I dunno and then he added me on facebook and pretty much soon there was this whole group of people (including the guy I really liked) and we would talk on Skype like every night and have a lot of fun... So my relationship with this "Sasuke" (lol) advanced and we spent multiple nights just talking to each other on Skype, and I mean ALL night, even though he had to go to work the next day... So we became good friends and I talked to him about the guy I liked... Let's just call him "Pein" since he was cosplayed as him. :P
Okay getting back to the story now.
In the end, a few days later, this whole group decided to come to my house to meet up and then go out somewhere together. :) They came and I hugged everyone, leaving Pein last and then hugging him for a long time... x) I thought he looked so handsome. >w< They were all nice, I thought Sasuke was cool too... I mostly talked and spent my time that day with those two people...
Okay now more details about the day. x)
We went to a park and I was hugging Pein and told him his heart was beating really fast...and he told me that his heart would always beat as if he were running but thinking about it now, was that just a cover up? Or do people's hearts actually do that? That seems weird to me if your heart is constantly like that, I hope he got it checked by a doctor if it was for real. x)
Otherwise we also went to a bowling alley that day and neither Pein nor I wanted to play so we sat together in the back... At one point I stuck my tongue out at him and he said I had a nice tongue haha now that I think about it I kind of think it's ridiculous and it embarrasses me a little and makes me laugh... :P
But yeah I can't remember all the details but it was a great day, I was really happy...
Later Sasuke asked me "soooo? what did you think?" He was obviously talking about Pein so I told him
I thought he was really cute... and I wanted to do naughty things to him ahaha
So pretty much he was really supportive and he just told me I should tell him... So once Sasuke and I were on Skype together and he was just trying to convince me and push me to tell Pein, so he practically forced me to! He invited him to the call and told him I needed to tell him something and hung up, leaving the two of us alone... XD wow
So I just told myself f*ck it and asked him if he wanted to have sex.
He said yes.
Hallelujah praise the Lord haha xD I was ecsatic.
So pretty much time went on like this:
Every Sunday, even Saturdays too sometimes, we would all go to the bowling alley together, I would never play though cause it's no fun to me and I didn't feel like spending money on something I didn't want and didn't have to do... Whatevs so since we were a large group of people, there weren't enough seats for everyone, leaving me out...so I would sit on Pein's lap hihi. ^^ But I would behave well, even if it was difficult. x) I would just put an arm around his shoulder and maybe just caress his arm or neck or hair... It was nice. And I mean of course we would talk a lot...
Also once, I took my best friend with me and there was a song that was really banging so we decided we would just dance a little for fun. :D So Pein, Sasuke and one of the other guys were like staring at us and drooling pretty much I thought it was really funny. And then Pein told me I looked hot when I danced... hihi
