Advice to make up to wife for being a crap husband

Firstly I am admitting to being a complete jerk and have no excuse for what I did. I have never done this before and don't plan on every doing it again.
I don't even know why I did it and regretted it instantly.

Last night me and my wife for the first time a long while managed to get into our own bed without our 1 1/2 year old being in our bed. We don't have a very exciting or regular sex life, (sex once in 3 months).

We got in bed and just layer there. Then my partner said "if you want to we can, bt have to be quick incase she wakes up!", I said ofcourse I want to as we never get intimate together.

I turned over and started to kiss her on the lips, after a couple of kisses she said "don't kiss me too much I have a soar throat", so I moved down onto her knock to start kissing that, again a couple of kisses she then said "don't kiss me you have whiskers, it's not very nice".

Ok, so I moved further down to her breasts, (she had a tank top on and a bra) so I tried to stroke inside her bra and kiss her breasts, she then said "stop I don't want you stretching my bra, and I don't like my breasts being played with", so I decided to move further down instead.

Started kissing her over her stomach, she then said "don't touch my stomach", so moved down between her legs... Started kissing inside her thighs and around her to get her in the mood... She said "Stop, your making my legs itch".

Ok so I'll go straight I'm, so I started going down her and touching her intimate area. (not even 5 minutes) she says "put a condom on, so your not faffing around when I'm ready to go"

Put one on and went to go back down on her and throught I'd get a vibratory out to help turn her on, so got one out and used in on her externally... Not even a minute before she said "Stop it just come on and let's start"

I said well I need a little help to get hard as till this time she haven't touched me once. She then just grabbed it and started yanking it. I then continued to rub her to keep her in the mood, I then said "can you play with my balls aswell to help. me get hard"? So she just grabbed then and pulled then really hard (hurt).

After a minute I was hard so moved her legs and waist to the edge of the bed so I could get into a comfortable position. I entered her amd started to get a rhythm and she kept moving her legs into different positions meaning I couldn't move comfortable inside her.

I then lifted her legs upto so her feet was either side of my head, and pulled her in closer and started increasing my thrusts and speed into her... This got me thrusting really quick and hard, really fast.

(This is where I am a total prat, and regret everything)
She said "I don't like this", I then lent over her so her legs were going towards her head and I got more over her and started really thrusting, I said "You like it really deep don't you" really pounding her! This was 10 seconds me ontop. She then shouted stop stop stop, I didn't stop for at least 3/4 seconds until I realised what I was doing. Then stopped immediately.

She then jumped off the bed crying and I was trying to apologise.

I honestly don't know why or what happened. As above I have never done this type of thing and never plan on doing it again. I'm a very caring person, this wasn't me. We have always been very gentle in the bedroom, so for me to do this, I don't even know why?

I want to make it up to her but how, what can I do to say sorry for that.

My head is a mess from this.

Please help

She was rude against you in very beginning and not gentle to you too so its forgivable. Looks like princess is used to have everything her way so man it was really easy for you to disappoint her. You stopped pretty quick however. Normally girls are not a softies like your wife. It seems like she regretted sex once you started it so problem is more in her than you.

However if you really love her you might think its your fault so if you want feel better about it then just ask if shes okay.
After something like that I just say - Sorry about that, are you okay? And if she says yes then I will ask yea are you okay? Repeating the question to make sure that shes really okay shows how much you care. For me it came naturally but some guys do it on porpoise.

So when she did get up and start crying I tried to hug her saying I'm really sorry, I hope I didn't hurt you. Are you OK?

She then told me to get out.... So I went down stairs to give her some space, I then went back up after 5 minutes and sat on the opposite side of the bed asking her are you ok?

I went out after work and purchase 2 bunches of flowers, her favourite sweets and a mini drink / chocolate set to say sorry. I then picked her up from work and gave them to her. She said "put the flowers on the back seat I'm not holding them" then threw the treats in her work bag and went on her phone. Not talking to me.

The only thing as has said is when we got in.. "I don't know what to say, but I want you to move out!"

Man you spoiled her too much. Its obvious you are under her feet. Stop giving away all your power to her. It seems like you are under beautiful women spell - google it. Best you can do is start respecting yourself as much as you respect her. You might think you deserve this shitty attitude but you dont. You are equal. Just because you have self esteem issues and dont know who you are, dont mean you deserve the crap shes giving to you.