"I love you" one day..."move on" the next
This is my first post. I'm looking for advice as to how to handle this situation. I'm so confused, annoyed, but still love her.
Quick history...Me and my ex were together for almost 2 years. Things were awesome, we talked about getting married, our kids, where to retire etc. It was for real I thought. Fights, but nothing that couldn't be resolved. I got out of the military, fell into a depression, and wasn't there for her all the time emotional. I wasn't healthy. She left me, moved out. I started seeing a shrink, it helped. I had my priorities straight. We were apart for a month, got back together, it was like a new love. Was great. Then a month back into it she said she couldn't be in any relationship with anyone. Said she needed time to get herself mentally healthy, she wanted time, but said she still wanted me and didn't see herself with anyone else. I agreed. Being apart physically, turned into her partying all the time, eventually having a new boyfriend a few weeks after she left me, she said she hated me, never loved me, and told me to move on. This was in February. So I started to move on...
A week after she trashed me, she called me up saying she wanted to see me, missed me, wanted everything back, said she broke up with my replacement. The next day I try to call her, she ignores me like I'm nothing, and said she doesn't love me etc. Playing games, lying, misleading, I lost all trust I have in her. This happened 5 times, same thing, same deal. I changed my number and moved 5 hours away, moving was the only way I could get over her and move on. I regrettable contacted her about mailing some of my belongings to me. I went 3 weeks without talking to her. I think I've moved on , and am doing good. That's when it started again...now every 2 weeks she's calling me wanting me back. She's been calling the past few days, talking all night which I did miss, I got a lot of my chest with her, says she acts the way she does cause she's confused, got all my built up feelings out, was like my bestfriend was back. she's reliving the past, calling me love and saying I love you, and I'd do anything to get back with you. Wants me to drive to visit. I said sure, we can catchup, since we've been out of eachothers lives since Feb. See where it goes etc. Last night I try to return her missed call she ignores me, lies abunch, plays me, says move on, but I'm sorry, pls leave me alone. I'm not that hurt or anything, mostly annoyed and disappointed. I never initiate contact. I know this girl like a book and she'll call again.
My logical side says, I do not want to know her, severe all contact with her, change my # again, I tried to be friends this last contact but she when she acts the way she does it's impossible! I'm weak her still. That was long...I guess I just want to know why she is doing this for the past few months, playing with my deepest emotions, ruining me, then acting like she doesn't care the very next day. Flip flopping her actions bipolar-like. Why can't she move on and let go of me? I don't know what to do anymore with her, so confusing and just adds drama to my life. Thanks in advance.
