fell inlove with a younger woman.
So there's this young woman (she just recently turned 18 last December 8) that I began to have feelings for. She is currently a helper or maid in my uncle's house. Our house and my uncle's is very near to each other so basically its a two house compound. I only noticed her back in October 2015 when she started working as a helper to aid her financial needs when going to college... I only ever did start talking to her in the 2nd week of December when my uncle's family and my mother and father and sister are away on vacation and I was left at home because I had school and my thesis to take care of. I'm a graduating student by the way, 22 years old and she is a 1st year college student... so that's a 4 year age gap.
So in order to not bore myself out at home I started talking to her when she's alone at my uncle's home. We talked about a lot of things like the memories from high school (especially the crazy stuff being done during those times), our favorite tv shows, 9GAG jokes, YouTube vids and anime. I also make her laugh a lot so not to make the situation awkward when I run out of topics. She's a little hard to talk to because she's not the first one to make topics. I mean you have to think of something yourself so that she can start talking again and when it comes to cellphone or Facebook chats, she also has very little replies. I commented about her not being too talkative. She said she's been like that ever since and even her friends complained about that habit of hers. At first I thought I was being a bit awkward at her but after knowing that, I at least know she treats me normally.
I also discovered that she never had a relationship since birth... well she did kind of had a relationship back in her 2nd year high school but if they have a relationship for like only 2 weeks, I don't think it would count off as a legit relationship... I would have to say about 6 months is where a true relationship happens... she also agreed to that part. Ever since then she rejected any advances on any male that would try to date her. I looked at the faces of her crushes both in high school and college and how they comment or behave in social media and hopefully I don't sound like I'm boasting or bragging anything but umm... I'm kind of well... better? I mean I can't really judge it solely on how they behave in social media. I mean we have to see them in person first of course to tell. This is just a personal comparison for myself.
So today my family and my uncle has finally come back and she got a little bit more busy again and I myself am also busy though maybe at weekends we could start to hang out together again. But back when we were still alone at my uncle's house visiting her everyday, we would talk from 6 am until night and sometimes I would even sleep at the couch in my uncle's. So yeah, because of that, I have feelings for her... it also kind of felt like we were acting like live ins together being that I always visit her. I asked her if this is the first time she has ever talked to a boy this long. She said yes... because she's never had a male sibling at home... and not even the boys or her crushes back in highschool and in college now.
So I don't know if I'll even attempt to try to date her because she said so herself that she's not interested in having relationships and that she wants to concentrate on her studies... I'm not sure if she's indirectly telling me that she does not want to date me or if that was just part of our conversation or maybe both. Well my first move at least is to make a FRIENDSHIP LETTER to her... and maybe even sing a love song to her but not actually saying that I love her... so I'm doing some non risky moves at first because we've only been talking for like a week and saying my feelings to her and her rejecting me will really hurt our friendship...so right now I'm trying to slowly build up my relationship to her and when the right time comes (I don't know when that will be yet but I'll come up for more plans) maybe I'll tell her.
So I kind of sound desperate and may seem like I've never had a girlfriend before... I actually had 3 girlfriends from the past... one from me at age 16, 19 and then at 21. I broke up with my 3rd gf last year... but this is the first time I ever felt this infatuated at someone... I mean 7 days and 12 hours per day spending time with her... it was like a dream come true... even I had never had that much time with my past gfs when our relationship was still fresh (or just started dating)... But I'm not THAT desperate with her though... I mean at college, and at church at least 4 girls do have crushes (at least to some that I've discovered due to their friends telling me) so if I failed at this attempt on trying to date my 18 year old friend living at my uncle's, at least I have some back up. Soo... any advices so far?
EDIT: Also I want to mention, were from the Philippines. People here are a lot more conservative and also she is not a city dweller as well. her home is in a rural area and only recently moved to our location where she can now experience what it's like being in a city.
