I know I am getting ahead of myself

To whom it may concern,
I really need to know how I can stop getting ahead of myself with this fellow. I like this guy and think I may be in love with him. I am currently friends with one of his in-laws on Insta. Every time I think I will see him in real life we miss each other. My true problem is that I can't contact him to get together for whatever reason. How can I stop getting ahead of myself when I think of a possible us
The real problem is I cry almost every night now in bed. Thinking of him and wanting it to work. I know I have to stop getting so upset till I can meet him. Any advice would be so beneficial. Thank you.

"My true problem is that I can't contact him to get together for whatever reason."

Why?

If you cannot contact him then there is no way to get him. Keep yourself busy in other things and try to forget him.