You need to believe in yourself. It's pointless to talk to someone who only looks at life as, "I can't do this because of this", versus a person that sets goals and says "if I do this, put in this hard work, I can achieve this".
You messaged a 100 women on the internet. Your internet pictures were probably poorly taken selfies, and your bio, if it was anything like how you're writing, was probably offputting. Both of which, wont get any positive attention from women.
The reality is, that man has no limbs. He talks in his speeches about how much he wanted to kill himself and how down he looked upon himself. But he decided to live his life to the best of his abilities.
I don't know what youre looking for here. Confirmation that you can't do it or what? So far all I've heard is complaining and reasons why you can't achieve anything with no real examples of you actually putting in hard work.
The reality is. Nobody can do things like this for you, you have to do it for you.
So, I guess it comes down to, do you want to change things? Or do you want to just sit in sorrow feeling bad for yourself? To me, sitting around sounds more painful and tiring than taking actual action.
I probably come off as a jerk in this, and I apologize for that. But you need some tough love.
I can't even keep posting in here if you keep degrading yourself. It's exhausting.