Okay, so I'm going to give a little background information on the situation first.
I'm a 25 year old female. I was living with my mom planning on going to school down in Baton Rouge, Louisiana. I was doing freelance gigs online, saving up money to go to school in order to major in web design at my local community college (a dream career). While doing so, Being a bit of an internet and music addict, I befriended this 41 year old dj who was promoting a few of the bands that I enjoyed listening too. We became mutual friends for about a year, but didn't really start talking until I posted a few pictures on a night I expressed feeling ugly on my facebook. Just one of those nights. Looking back he messaged me at a vulnerable time. We started talking intimately and a month later I was on a plane to go visit him here in Georgia.
A month after the visit I was moved in with him and his family. The money I had saved for going to school was used to completely redo and clean his childhood room. All of the furniture in here is mine, including the t.v. The floor is even mine. I put in like 2,000 into it because it was totally unlivable and then it took a thousand for me to get up here. After kind of waking up, I realize that this just isn't for me anymore. The age difference is getting to me and as nice as his family is I realize that there is some dysfunction here. Everyone is older than me so I feel like the kid. They are all in poor health and kind of grumpy, so I feel like I get bickered at a lot. It's just not what I thought it would be.
It's just not a situation I want to be in, anymore. I'm just being honest. Putting it nicely, it's just not a clean and healthy environment and I am a clean and healthy person who comes from a very loving family. I feel like I'm loosing myself here. My boyfriend is a sweet person. He really is, but his health is not that great, and he doesn't have a desire to change it. There is no physical romance and he keeps making excuses, but it's just not there. When we were first talking it was almost completely different. He expressed a lot of lust and adoration for me, but after my visit there it went down hill. He invited me to stay with him (and often talks about marriage), and honestly I had a great thing going back at home, so I am here because I did think I loved him. Now I feel like I keep seeing red flags.
I told my mom that I wanted to come home, and she is driving up from Louisiana to Augusta to visit in December. I am thinking about going back with her and just staying. Leaving the rest of my belongings behind. I honestly have no idea how my boyfriend will take it, because with as sweet as he is, I know there is an angry side. His stories about getting angry have scared me before.
I guess I just need an outside opinion as to what you would do in my situation. Reading this over I realize how crazy and naive I must sound. *sigh*
EDIT: The bedroom was unlivable that's why I spent so much money on it.