Caught in the Middle

[lucyelric]

I've never met such great people in my life, and that's why the two of them are my best friends.
I met Kyle almost three years ago during my senior year of high school, and it took us a bit, but we became such great friends. Almost a year ago Kyle introduced me to his best friend Aiden and the three of us have been super tight ever since.
Now here's where the problems ensue. For almost as long as Kyle has known me, he's also liked me and I've made it very clear to him that the two of us are just friends. He was afraid to have the whole conversation with me thinking that I would leave the friendship or be angry with him but I explained that we, as people, can't control who we care for or how much and that I wasn't put off or anything. And things have been alright between us since; no hurt feelings or anything.
Well, recently (as in a couple of months ago) I noticed that I was beginning to form feelings for Aiden and I just let it be without saying anything because it was my hope that those tiny feelings for him would just diminish over some time. Well fast forward to now, I like Aiden more than ever. He truly makes me light up just being in the room or looking at me. We're the kind of best friends that always bicker and fight but ten seconds later we'll be laughing and falling in each others arms. We're the kind of best friends that can talk about serious things and act completely ridiculous in front of each other. It's the kind of relationship you see in the movies, honestly. I just love the guy.
And in my heart, I knew he loved me too. And so I let things run their course believing that when it was time and the both of us were ready something bigger would develop.
Last weekend Aiden and I decided to go roller blading because it's something I've been nagging Kyle and Aiden to go do with me forever. Kyle kept shrugging it off though so Aiden said he would take me. So the day comes, and as I'm getting ready to go out Kyle texts me asking if I want to hang out. Naturally I told him I couldn't since I had already made plans with Aiden. And Kyle just lost it. He demanded to know why we didn't invite him and he began accusing us of having ulterior motives, saying we didn't want him around and such. It was crazy talk but he was so set on believing it. So trying to mollify the situation I told Kyle he could come of course because it wasn't our intention to leave him out (like I said, I had brought up the idea to the both of them several times and Kyle never wanted to do it but Aiden did). So Aiden and I ended up changing our plans completely to include Kyle and when we got to the rink Kyle never even skated. He just sat on a bench looking at his phone the whole time.
Later that night after we dropped Aiden off, Kyle was talking to me and he told me that Aiden had admitting to liking me earlier that day at the rink when I happened to not be around. I was speechless. I mean, he had told me what I already suspected, but it was something different to actually have it confirmed. Anyway, he continued on saying how he thought it was really weird that Aiden asked only me to go out that day and that he didn't like it, etc, etc,.
That was last weekend. Today, Tuesday, Kyle told me that Aiden told him he wasn't sure anymore (in regards to liking me) and I feel like my whole world is slowly crumbling now. My two best friends are at odds with each other but won't admit it. And I don't know if what Aiden said about not being sure about me is because 1)he truly isn't or 2)he doesn't want to risk anything with Kyle because Aiden knows that Kyle likes me too. And now I just feel like this wonderful possibility that could have been between Aiden and me is gone because of the way Kyle acted and reacted to Aiden's feelings.
Am I being too insensitive? Am I doing something wrong? How am I supposed to handle this? I really love Aiden, and I love Kyle as well, just not in the same way and he knows that. I didn't expect him to be like this. Was I too harsh in thinking that my feelings were ok? I mean, what is it that went wrong?? I'm at such a loss. I just want us to be ok again. What do I do? I think talking to Aiden about it is out of the question because Kyle wasn't supposed to have told me what he did, and if I let Aiden know that I know, things could get worse.
I just feel like I"m going to explode and all I really want right now is to be with Aiden, but what if it costs me Kyle?
I'm sorry this was so long, and I appreciate anyone who has made it this far. Please, please, please, help! Comments, thoughts, ideas on what I should do. Anything. I feel so stuck and alone.

[Wakeup]

Have you even talked to Aiden about his and your feelings for one another? If you haven't then go over to Aiden's house or you go to his and you talk to him face to face and if he does indeed like you as more then a girl friend then.. as you like him more then a boy friend, then you two do what you need to do make it official. Kyle can go shit up a tree this isn't his business and if he tries to make it his business, shut him down.

BTW: Please put Kyle on so I can educate him about getting away from chicks he likes more then buddies so that he doesn't stagnate his own romantic life by hanging onto someone who doesn't like him in the same way he likes her.

[michelle23]

I think you have been cruel and unfair to kyle keeping him around as just a friend knowing he has feelings for you.. you like the attention and you are being selfish. You should have told him its never going to happen and to forget you so he can go and find someone who does want him while you keep your distance and let him get over you.. its typical attention whore behavior and it shows your immaturity..