This is driving me insane. I'm thinking about some guy I don't even know---a missed connection. I even thought about putting a Craigslist missed connection ad for him, but too chicken to even do that, so I wrote it just to get it out of the way and don't plan on actually posting it on CL. Any thoughts as to what happened to him? That's the part that drives me nuts is that, literally, the next day when I realize I like this guy, he disappears.

I first saw you during autumn of 2013. I was one of the last ones to get on the bus and sat in the front. A few minutes after sitting down, I noticed this tall, dark and handsome man sitting across from me, stealing glances at me. You kept looking at me like I was the most beautiful thing that walked into your life, or at least on that bus. :p You did this during the entire 20 minute bus ride to downtown. Perhaps you didn’t notice, but I too quickly looked over at you. You had a nice, full set of medium-dark brown hair and you weren’t wearing ring. No ring. Check. Why is he single, I asked myself? Why is he still looking at me? I thought, I better close my eyes, as I didn’t know what else to do.

My stop was always before yours. A few months went by here and there, and I would see you again. Each time, I caught you stealing glances at me. Another time after I haven’t seen you in a while, you finally got out of the bus at my stop. It seemed like you had been looking for me after the long intermission of not seeing each other, and you finally wanted to say something to me that day, but you didn’t. Instead, I saw you looking directly at me and then even went inside my workplace, but you didn’t even say hello or even hold the door for me as I was right behind you. You left me watching you walk away, dumbfounded.

After that, I saw you sitting by yourself on the bus a few times, and I contemplated if I should come and sit by you, but I didn’t. I just walked pass your seat and went my way. Perhaps you don’t know, but I was still married at the time, and so I wasn’t actively looking for anyone. Although I’ve always noticed you, I never reciprocated because I did not want to lead you on, knowing that I was married even though I was unhappy and that my marriage was ending soon. I wanted to start things right with the next person I was with.

The more I saw you, the more I realized I was falling for you, but just when I realized this, you disappeared. You stopped taking the usual bus I would see you on. I looked for you every day for the last several months and wondered where you've been. Why did you stop taking that bus? Is he avoiding me now and taking a different bus? Does he even work or live in the same area anymore? Crazy, unnecessary thoughts have been running across my mind since I last saw you. Every guy that has similar hair and build as you became you, but after the second or third glance, they were never you.

I usually don’t feel this way about strangers, but somehow, you became part of the motivation for me to end a relationship that I knew wasn’t meant to be, in the hopes of being with someone who would be. Come back and ride the bus again, and this time, say hello.