Long story short...boyfriend and i together 6 years, living together alittle over 3. he always said at least together 5 years we get engaged but that didn't happen. Now we finally looking for own place he has excuse why its not good. A few months back he told me if we could be engaged we would be today, but yesterday he said he perfer if he got his car turbo'd up and on our own before he proposes, he doesn't want to propose while living with family. Obviously im upset, i don't think he feels same way. He says he wants to live me and marry me, that i'm wrong, he is ready just wants is car stuff out of the way and for us to be on our own feet. If he had to leave the car out of it then i would understand or say it was something that was urgent for the car to get done.
My family thinks im sort of overreacting because if everything is good why ruin it with engagement/marriage. Its not even about that...it is but it isn't. He is putting his car before me and want him to focus on us being in adult relationship. also if we were to get engaged i would not even care for a ring or huge wedding, i love him and want to run away now and marry him. I have been telling him this for years.
Am i being insecure and dumb for getting the vibe he just doesn't love me the same way?