I'm not sure where to start..... Some background I guess. I'm 28, married 1.5 years and have a baby on the way. I have been with my wife for about 6 years. We were attracted towards each other and we're good friends. Things have gone downhill since marriage. By downhill I mean limited taking to each other and physical activity. Have been working at my current job for 5 years and love working there. I am considered the "popular/go to" guy in the office and a lot of people look up to me (I feel like a douche saying that, but it's true) and have me make most of the social events.*
My dilemma is love... and not with my wife. I fell in love with a coworker over the course of a few years. We immediately hit it off and a strong connection has been developed over the past few years. We both make each other laugh, stare into each other's eyes and have that intangible factor. I am unbelievably attracted to her and think about her A LOT. Although we have had a strong connection over the years, I tend to take breaks speaking to her due to depression I have given my current situation (feeling empty, bad, sad and knowing it can't go anywhere). I am almost positive that she knows that I have very strong feelings for her just by the way we speak and I look at her (I hit on her occasionally just to hammer home the point).*
The twist: Not only am I in love with someone other than my wife, she has a boyfriend. On top of this, another friend of mine, who is also a coworker and her friend, basically said he had feelings for her too. He told her recently and it didn't really go to we'll for him I think. I have tried to keep it cordial with her and tried to set up dinner dates with me, my wife, her and her boyfriend but she keeps blowing me off even though we are close at work.*
My problem is that I have gotten to a point in my life where I don't want to live with regret and be happy. I am miserable most of the day even though I act carefree/happy and I enjoy my job. This is because of my rocky marriage and my feelings for someone I work with.
I need advice. I am considering just telling her how I fell and leaving my job just because I can't deal with the emotions.*