So am looking for some unbiased opinions here. My story 34 year old guy. I was engaged a few years ago in a very passion, yet also drama filled relationship. It actually fell apart weeks before the wedding. I remained in contact with her way too long after we broke up. Anyway I have dated several others since her and most of them fizzled out as I realized there really wasn't much substance there just surface attraction.
I then met a girl with whom I share so many things in common with its almost eerie ranging from hobbies to family upbringing to values. I've been with her on and off for about a year (I've had to travel a lot). She is truly my best friend, and I love her company and she is always there for me and has the biggest heart ever. I love her. But the problem is I fear I am not in love with her. And I'm not sure it's just being jaded from my "passion/drama filled" relationships of the past or if there's merit to my feelings.
I want to hug her, hold her hand, sit next to her, spend time with her, travel with her, but I really have no desire to kiss her, sleep with her etc. I do sleep with her (not often) and once we start everything usually fine. The difference is with other girls I'm ready to go like 24/7 and actually get upset if it goes a few days without. So I imagine she may be feeling the same. Kissing is more like pecks than passionate full on making out.
My concern is am I settling and doing her injustice by staying with her or do I need to try and embrace the amazing girl that she is? I realize that down the road attraction, beauty, and passion fades and what we have will be exactly what I'll want when I'm old and grey. But am I too young for that now?
Thank you in advance for your advice and opinions.