My ex and I were on and off for few years and we lived 4 hours apart. We were planning to meet up last time but the plans kept falling through because of conflicting schedules .Then he ended up meeting someone closer.

He had met other females when we were part in the past but I know that they didn't mean anything to him because he would always come back to me despite the distance. This time its different because he didn't have a problem telling me that he met someone else .He openly admitted that he likes her allot.

I was crushed knowing that he was taking another girl out ,kissing and getting to now her. I understand that he needs someone closer to him but it was terrible hearing him connecting with someone else.

I told him that it was painful for me watching him dating someone else so its best we go separate ways. He agreed that it was for the best and he told ``fare well`` and that was it

That was 7 months ago and we haven't had contact since. The thing is, I haven't had much luck with dating. I had a big crush on another guy from work shortly afterwards which helped me to take my mind off my ex. My crush was flirting with me so I thought we had potential and he likes me back

However, my crush never made a move or ask for my number. Then I found out from someone else that he has a live in gf.I still had a crush on him but he now left the company which put him out of sight ,out of mind . It made it easier for me to get over him.

I recently had sudden urge to contact my ex just to see how he is doing. I thought about it more and I decided not to since its bad idea. I am in a vulnerable emotional state and he is still with the same girl then I would be jealous and upset all over again .

Now I find myself feeling jealous again about my ex being with someone else. I now find myself thinking about them having sex, hanging out and the fact that someone else took my place . I don't understand why I am feeling crappy again if I didn't contact my ex.

why do I feel like the old wounds are opened again without contacting him ?Is haven't had much luck with dating