I broke up with my fiancé almost two months ago because i found out (due to an avo being served on him at my house) that he had been harassing another woman when he told me he was going to visit his daughter, who lives a two hour drive away. I had asked him several times who this woman was as i had seen her name come up on his phone multiple times and i 'thought' (read knew) i had seen messages he had written to her along the lines of 'i love you' or 'i wish you were here' etc. I could never prove it though because he wouldn't let me touch his phone and every time i confronted him, he said i was imagining it.
He's been contacting me at work, leaving messages out of hours, telling me he's learnt his lesson, that he'll be completely honest and open with me if i take him back. Problem is, this isn't the first time he's lied to me about something massive - he didn't tell me he had been married and had a child until i found their wedding photos and her facebook profile with their family photos.
I'm still in love with him but my head says that i can't trust him again - my family and friends certainly won't. I feel like i'm in a never ending tennis match, bouncing between missing him so much i can't breathe and wishing he would just leave me alone. Should i trust my head or my heart?