Hello,
So Ive been online dating and as of right now Im about to throw in the towel in frustration. Ive dated 12 different women. 4 of them I liked very much, and 4 of them I didnt at all, and the other 4 wouldnt give anything a chance to even see if there is a match.
So this is whats happening to me. The ones I dont like, they like me, and the ones I like, 2 of them were not into me, and 2 of them were into me on the date, but after the date, I never hear from them again.
So Im really frustrated. Its like the universe is telling me., I dont want you romantically happy. I want you to be alone. I want you to look around you in society, and feel bad that you dont have what others have in this life.
Its frustrating because any time Im really into someone, getting closer to them eludes me. And anytime someone else likes me, but Im not into them, they are all over me and want me. Its so frustrating Im just ready to give up dating all together and just be alone for the rest of my life. It shouldnt be this hard.
I just dont think its a coincidence that what I so much desire in life keeps eluding me in every way shape or form. There is a reason and its pissing me off, making me depressed and lonely and its highly unfair. I see other guys get exactly what they want. But when I go after the same thing, there is such a block that its like everything I want, the opposite happens.
I cant fight providence. Hey Im an attractive, fun loving guy. Why is it sooo difficult for me to find love and the guy next door, who probably couldnt give a damn, attracts it like bees to honey?? How is this fair? Why is it happening? How do I turn it around??
So anyway, thats whats happening. Im so frustrated. but I will not settle. Im not going to date someone Im not attracted to just because what I want eludes me.
Why is this happening? How can I turn it around? I feel lost and stuck and right on the edge of giving it over and allowing providence to win and just resort to being alone, because obviously thats whats supposed to be. Its plain as day.
Thanks for your help.