Hi all.
Point is; I think I'm in love.
We were definitely in love in college, as far as I knew, and she'll admit now.
I ****ed it up moving to the other side of the country, chasing a job, money, and the idea that there would be something greater on the horizon than the best friend I met in college.
Gave it up, moved back to her coast, though not straight into her arms as I should have; "I had to get my life sorted out; make sure I was doing things for the right reasons, and everything was set up right." She wouldn't see me.
Made the best of it, even met a girl who adores me.
We cheat, once, but it takes me six months to break up and in four she's fallen in love with another guy and he's dumped her. I can only assume he'll come back at the relevant time.
Now I'm single and she's going on a 3-4 month trip. I told her how I feel and she basically said not to quash my feelings but not to expect anything when she comes back, and the way I love her and think about her every morning and night for the past three years she feels about some other guy right now and is going on this trip… (I'm sure he'll come back to her when she comes back and I want to ****ing murder him before that can happen).
Now I'm going to Burning Man.
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