Well I'll start off by letting ya know I'm only 17 and graduating HS this year. beginning of summer I met this girl who lived about an hour from where I was. We hit it off immediately and got along well she was jus a real cool genuine chick. We eventually hungout throughout the summer and got to know each other better while falling for one another. It was really cool honestly! haven't gotten close w/ a girl in a while so going through w/ it was kinda exciting. talked ab all kinds of shit and were full on just into one another. it was clear to both of us we were falling pretty hard and just going w flo of things ya know. I never put my all into a relationship anymore due to getting hurt or things not working out but I said **** it with her just cause I was so caught up in it. We weren't exclusive tho. Meaning I didn't call this chick my girlfriend just this girl I've been talkin to. I honestly didn't give a shit what we were I was down for her regardless. Even tho I wasnt dating around w anyone else cuz I was obviously chasing something else so no one else was involved. So 3 months of talking to this girl on tha phone, texts, and going and doing shit together really takes a toll on a man especially me lmao! im Pisces and was feelin everything ab this girl so u can probly understand how intense some emotions can get. ..well one weekend we kinda hadn't been texting much and she wasn't hitting my
Phone like she usually always was so I jus knew she was busy w sumn else.. Didn't think much of it but obvious doubts and suspicions. Well 3 days go by and no text or call so i know she wasn't intending on it. Being the person I am I wasn't trying to worry ab it. Lol wasn't gonna call her and ask her why she wasn't being distant cuz I "didn't give a shit" at the time. Well about 4-5 days later I get a text from her saying she can't do this anymore &other distance is too much blah blah blah bullshit haha. One thing u can't do is bullshit a bullshitter i jus read right thru her texts to her real intentions so I just said **** it whatever. I didn't reply or anything cuz I had nothing to say. didn't care to worry about it jus lettin her think ab her decision on her own. I knew she had probly met someone else and just switched the roles... which of course i was right and she had met someone else and started dating soon soon after she texted me. I still never said a word to her, didn't even wanna. Just real dumb to have that shit occur right? annoying that I had to get caught up and dropped like that. I don't want any sympathy or anything. not really heartbroken just pissed that someone could be so deceiving. obviously she wasn't the one for me and that is her lost at the end of the day but still wanna get this shit off my mind. I'm in a love funk and wanna put myself out there but can't. jus mixed feelings about what love is and how it can be found and if true love exists? don't have any effort to try and date again but still want that missing feeling ya know jus in between... thanks for reading tho any answer is appreciated! -chris