He dumped me a few years ago, I was heartbroken were I begged and made a fool of myself. I only had sex with him once since that was over a year ago, he went back to ignoring me. Every few months after that he would message me on whatsapp asking to meet me, I'd ignore him and he would block me, mail few months later, so I got fed up and asked him why he's messaging me for sex unknown to me his new girlfriend is sitting next to him reading the messages, so she phones and her and him are giving me abuse, how I was wide and I'm rubbish at sex couldn't make him cum,that day I changed my number.
Few months later joined an online dating site, all was well first few days chatting away to men, when I read a message, it was from ex.. I just deleted it and blocked him, he would make another up, same thing happened again..and again and again, I deleted my profile. I tried online dating again few months later, he messaged me again, I ended up asking what he wanted , he replied I've changed, and you will never get better than me, I blocked him, on Saturday I found out through mutual friend he has just had a baby with the female that was giving me abuse, so I was on reading messages on the online date site and this man called Steven wanted to meet up, so chatting away until I realised who I was typing to, he was catfishing me pretending to be Steven. So this time I got fed up and asked what he wanted, he told me he wanted to meet me once a week for me to give him oral sex and begging me to meet him, told him no I don't want to, I've not logged back in, and don't think I'll use online dating again.
I'm now back at square one, were I remember that I'm not of any worth to him, I'm a joke, someone for him to try an use, i am trying to find happiness in my life and he is tripping me up, people say forget him you're better than him, but I really loved him once and I find it so hard when he's messaging me on one place I'm trying so hard to find someone to share my life with. Is it he'd hate to see anyone happy because he's miserable? Why pick on me why can't he not let me move on?
He doesn't like me, he thinks I'm crap at sex, I can't work out why..
Why does he hate me?