First of all, I love my boyfriend. At least, I think I do. I've been writing on this once before with the same problem.

I want to be with my boyfriend, I want to live the life I have for the past year and a half with him and I want to continue doing this.

We were friends since we were 16 and got together when we were 19. The last year had been incredible, we were each other's first time, we experienced all these new things together and it was bliss. However in the summer he was working away. On the eve of his arrival home he called to say he had been asked to work away AGAIN, but would leave after a brief weekend with me. I think since then things haven't been the same, and this was in July, and now it is November.

Lately I just feel disconnected. I want to be his girlfriend and I want to be in love with him, but I'm worried that I'm just not feeling it. In honesty, I think breaking up would break my heart.

My home life has been stressful and we haven't felt as "free" as we used to; my parents have imposed curfews (I am 20 years old, but I agree that coming home late and disturbing them isn't fair) which means we can't up and leave on a new adventure.

Over the past few months I have been unwilling sexually - but I have since regained the spark. My only annoyance is that he still wants to constantly kiss me - but I'm trying to speak! But I still very much want to kiss him.

There was an individual at my work who I felt I had some chemistry with - we got on very well. But I would never cheat on my boyfriend. But I feel guilty that I had some sort of connection with that person.

Does this mean that I've fallen out of love?

I so wish the "honeymoon phase" would return. I want to return to being absolutely in love with my boyfriend and I'm terrified that, because I am having these thoughts, that they'll always be in the back of my mind.

Please give me your advice. Every day I am constantly plagued with doubt and the last thing I want to do is break both our hearts.