I just ended my long term relationship with my children's father over ongoing trust issues and lies. I asked him to stay in the guest room until we figure things out financially. I am not working right now. My babies are 6months and 2years and I know I cannot survive financially alone at the minute. I am scared of a future without him. I loved him with all my heart but the last few years have been dysfunctional, I no longer trust him. He lies a lot about stupid things and I feel like it has become impulsive. He is good at it too. I am usually quite good at reading people and knowing when they are lying but with him, I never know for sure. I am sick of the uncertainty, insecurity and pain. I don't want to do this anymore.
But I also don't want to hurt my children. I am not naive or stupid enough to believe he will change. I know that wont happen so do I just put up with it for my children's sake as they love their daddy or do I leave. He is very good to us in a lot of ways. All my family adore him and think he is perfect but they don't know about the constant lies and all the stress/pain it has caused me. I feel like I am just existing.
And right now I feel like I would be better off alone forever than feeling so lonely with him
Please help