Ughhhhh ... I just wrote a very long post and it somehow got lost .. Ok ill sumerize .. Met a woman 6 months ago .. So is wonderful .. If there are soulmates shes definatly mine .. Im 44 been in a very long relation ship 13-40 and was cheated on but am now best friends with my ex .. Fiance of recent left me for a 24 year old she is 46 .. Met new girl 2 weeks later .. Never felt like this .. We are inseperable .. Even my ex-wife says shes the best thing to happen to me .. My 12 year old daughter also adores her .. My mom met her on a whim the secound date we went on " i had to stop by their house on the way to diner and she insisted to come in and meet my parents" my mom pulled me into the kitchen with tears in her eyes and said this is the one for you i thinknshe is your soulmate ... I dont normally belive in these things but some odd things have happened.. Anyway last month while drinking some wine we were teasing ine another .. She made fun of my numbers " ive only been with around 7 woman" i jokingly ssid sorry i havent been with a couple hundred ... She replied " it wasnt a couple hundred just over 100. I gasped and tried not to look to freakec out but it showed .. She said it was right after her divorce at 18 to about 22 that it was a bad period in her life and she was feeling very bad about herself to the point she tried to kill herself which redulted in lofe long liver problems ... Why does her past that was 25 years ago haunt me ... She was raised mennonite but definatly has led a very wild life ... Nothing like mine .. I feel like im inwordly very judgmental .. I would never let her know I feel funny about her past .. I find her to be perfect ... Now I tend to get very pissed when I hear someone refer to a woman as a slut or a whore ... But im also feel like im just as bad for not being able to just ket her past be what it is ..... Her Past
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Sorry about the horrible spelling .. I have big hands and its hard to type on the phone