So I am the fortunate guy who found my soulmate. We connect on so many levels its famtastic, amazing, wonderful! But is as much painful. See she is in a marriage that she is very unhappy with. There are 2 fantastic boys. We are soooo great together.. until we are alone.. she runs from me whenever we get close, intimate close. Then she tells me that I make her spin, and to avoid it, she stops talking to me .. for days. No calls, no chat... nothing.
She is a career woman, with tons of projects on her plate, deals with her Mom that still suffers their loss of her Dad 10 months ago. She deals with her husband, she stresses all the time about everything. She keeps herself so busy running from everything it becomes near impossible to get any of her time.
We chatted and spoke for about 2 wks recently, everything was awesome. Then she stopped over to my apartment for a visit.. no expectations.. but we kissed, We hugged, I whispered in her ear in Italian (she loves the language, so Im learning it). Then, she practically sprinted out the door, "I need to go before I get in trouble", then as I followed her out, "This was a terrible idea"... then nothing for 4 days, other than, Im overwhelmed. This is a circular pattern.. every month or so it happens...
All I do is try to sit, be patient and supportive of everything that is going in. But it hurts... to be dismissed so easily.. makes me wonder if there is hope ir if I am delusional in our love...just dont know. She compartmentalizes so much and rarely explains anything... we are so much more than what I have written... but in the overall...Im just lost...