It's a long story but I will try to cut as short as possible as it would take me entire day to elaborate all the details.
I am 38 yrs old F and I met this guy online 11 years ago.At the time I lived in Europe and he is from Europe too just from another country but he traveled a lot as one part of his family is from South America.Shortly after we started talking I got job in North America and permanently moved here.We kept our pen-pal relationship for several more years.We almost met in 2010 but I was not sure in his intentions (if he just wants to be friends or more ) so I decided to take another route as I was 32 at the time I wanted to start a family.So in the meantime I met another guy and had a child with but all those years I never forgot my online "friend".I know it will sound crazy but I loved him from the day one.We are so much alike in almost everything, just 2 days apart with our birthdays ,we share same interests for music,science,adventures.Have same views on politics, religion, gen approach to life, society and so on.There is only one difference and that is how we express our emotions.I am more extroverted and am not afraid to express my feelings and he is a bit of introvert and rarely ever spoke about his love life or feelings about someone of the opposite sex and therefore I could never tell if he just liked me as a friend or there was more to it.So after more then 6 years of not having any communication with him I decided to send him an email.I was afraid that I will get a negative feedback ,I thought he must have got married by now and had kids, or he wandered into Amazonian forest and got gobbled up by 10m long anaconda.2 days after my email was sent I got response from him..He was alive ,not married ,but got a job in Asia and he will be going there in the next few months.I don't know how but after few email correspondences he decided to come visit me here in N.America since he always wanted to see this part of the world and experience some deep freeze and wilderness of the north.I am so excited and scared at the same time because I do not know what to expect.In his emails he is expressing enormous excitement and he seems scared too because he says he is afraid to disappoint me ( Intellectually).He is going to stay for about a month before he will depart to Asia for his work.I planned great adventures for him and booked some fun activities but I do not know how I will handle all this .I am so scared to make a first step but I am also thinking if I wait for too long nothing will happen.I really do not know what is the smartest thing to do..Im dying here .I want him so badly...