Need some advice, firstly i have been in a relationship for 13 years since i was 15. I have 4 children from this relationship. From i got together with this man he done nothing but cheat on me for the first 4 ish years, i decided i loved him and that although 2 of these times was when i was pregnant i got over it eventually as he showed me he was changing. Over the past 2 years i noticed that we were getting distant and that we are not close how we used to be. I had a lot going on loosing people close to me and i started to accuse him of cheating again as he never had time for me or his children. I would sit down with him everynight and try and express how i feel and break down every night cause i could feel we was drifting, an all he ever said was i was talking nonsense. Anyway a couple of months back i ran into a old male friend and for the first time ever i gave out my number and he used to phone everyday and we would talk, only on a friendship level but then 1 night i broke down and told him how i felt and he comforted me and we ended up sleeping together. In all my life i have never felt soo guilty and i told my partner what i had done. We argued about it and he told me we was over, i decided as much as i loved him i was in the wrong and i would leave him to live his life and be happy. Then he came back and said he wanted to work it out. It then became a vicious circle 1 min he wanted to b with me the next he dnt. Anyway today i told him i cant take anymore and that i know i was in the wrong and i admit it but i am in a dark place and he is just making me worse he is nothing but nasty to me all the time an i have had enough but im finding it hard to get over it and thinking how am i going to live without him? How do you get over something like this?