What should I do? Take her back?

[DavidJones13]

Hey guys,

So Basically, I've just broken things of with my girlfriend after a year and a half. For the first year we dated everytime she went out with her friends shed dance with other guys, lead them on but not kiss them (It took me a year to find this out) , then one night she ended up kissing some guy (just a peck she says) and well she told me (after some questioning on my behalf) the next day. However, she lied to me and now 8 months later ive found out that it happened in different circumstances. She had basically lied and made it sound like the guy she had cheated with was "cooler" saying he was a rugby player in town and had sat her down bought her a drink etc. when actually it was some guy that had just compliment her and grabbed while she "was walking to the bathroom without her friends". I had forgiven her and let go as much as possible when she first told me as she suffers from a lack of self confidence and anxiety and id felt like she did this to make herself feel better (is this me just making excuses?). THis was no the only incident where i had doubted her she had also posted stuff on snapchat with guys on nights out also and for the first couple of months she had texted a few guys on snapchat also. The thing is she is so out of my league and it isnt all bad she is really remorseful and does suffer as she is a bit of a compulsive liar. But she has also supported me been there and has truly showed me she cares too.

She is also quite controlling, she dislikes my friends for no real reason, has been on my facebook, and i sort of spend everyday i can with her and maybe i also just want a break and time on my own to do my hobby which i love. Sorry if im rambling, but basically after finding out I ended things because i just couldnt deal with how id been lied to for such a long period of time. But i do still love her, i do still know she is one of a kind and i dont know i guess im scared? but i know i cant be the only person whos been in this situation so i guess im asking for some reassurance or something that this is the right way to go?

Currently She has not stopped texting me, is a complete mess but i think with everything that has happened i cant see forever anymore? But then im also afraid that what if this is just the hurt and in 3 weeks time ill be missing and wishing we were back together. i have not been perfect in the relationship either, but ive never been disloyal or controlling to her shes gone out with friends, and well has the freedoms that she takes from me. But is it her fault as she suffers mentally a lot with anxiety, she worries, she has sleepless nights over silly things about me.

This has been so badly structured but i think it represents how all over the place my head is currently and well basically im just asking for other peoples thoughts on what is going on and other opinons based on the fact, cause my heart and my head are all over the place

[Hooo!]

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