I was in an abuse marriage for 18 years. I finally left my ex-husband 2 years ago. Since that time I have met an wonderful man. We have been living together for an year. We both have been divorce with our own kids. I married my ex-husband just because I got pregnant. There was no love between us. But now I'm in love with my boyfriend and really want to get married. He has made it clear in the beginning that he didn't want to get married again. I have kinda brought it up and he as that he would always change his mind. And that he really loves me. I just don't know how to tell him I want everything that I didn't have the first time around. I want to get married just because we love each other. It's hard for me to explain to him because he married his ex-wife out of love. But I have never had that. I want to feel how it's feels when you say I do to someone you really love. Has someone else ever been in this spot? Should I tell him why it means so much to me or just continue on the way things are?