My confession... bottled upsinde :(

[sad4eva]

I have a confession I have to tell...

This will not be huge to any of you because none of you know me.... But here it is...


It all started January 2005,

I went back to my home country. I fell in love and wanted to get engaged. We loved each other so much. There was not one minute her and I weren't together. Then 2 weeks came and went and I had to fly back to Canada.

I couldn't leave but I did. After 1 week I went back to my home country. I couldn't handle it, I missed her. Back in my home country, I loved her a lot but we barely saw each other. Worst 3 months of my life I stayed there. After huge family fights with her and mine, I ended up coming back here to Canada...

We broke up.. I travelled there and back a lot. I wasted over $4000.00 over this. I am seriously in debt.. But I don't care anymore...

The problem is that she dumped me. Why?

Because I was a liar. I lied about everything. There is nothing to say because there isn't the time in the world or the universe that would be enough of how much I hurt her and lied. I was an ******* but it doesn't matter anymore. I just want her to be happy. I loved her, and always will...

As for me, I just have to admit it and stop denying myself. I was born to be alone and will always be. That's all... I miss her so much. I hope she's very happy whereever she is now...

I also like to mention the next biggest thing after being a HUGE liar that I was... I broke it off with her more than 6 times in 3 months. I hurt so much... I changed but it's too late. I know it..

[shh!]

Live and learn. And by the way, if you did nothing but lie the whole time you were seeing her, then she DIDN'T love you because she didn't KNOW you. Also, two weeks together while on vacation seems really soon to have invested so much emotion; perhaps next time you ought to slow down and whatever you do, stop lying. People HATE liars.

[Asip4u]

This seems like something i heard plenty of times before. You have to change your ways, like shh! mentioned above, if you don't stop lying, no girl will be able to love you.