Hello all I am new to this site and just need to talk and ask for some feedback.
I've been with my man for for a year and 5 months. We moved in fairly quickly and we both share rental property so we have a very serious relationship.
I found out last year he was cheating on me with his ex throughout the entire time. He denied it all though. Even though I know in my heart it's true... I just decided to forgive him and move foward. My issue is not feeling like I'm enough for him. I just want him to love me the way that I love him. I Pay all of the living bills at his house and all the bills at the rental property. Anytime we go out, I pay the tabs. I feel like he has it pretty darn good with me. Why would he want anyone else? I try and give him weekly massages, I clean, cook, take care of laundry and I try my best to be as supportive as I can. But there is something in him that feels like he wants to cheat and I just do not feel enough for him. We went on a weekend getaway to Gatlinburg and though I paid for everything, even bought him a souvenir for us to remember our first trip, he only bought something for him and his son and nothing for me. he didn't even want to have sex with me
And I feel in my gut that he may still want the ex. Don't ask me how or why I feel this way, its just a hunch. Maybe its because it was said that he bough her a couch and dining room table for her apartment. For him to do that for her tells me he was more serious about her than he led me to believe in the beginning.
She and I conversed a bit when all of the cheating came out. She isn't the one who told me..... she had no intentions on letting it out. Our mutual friend told me. In the midst of our conversation... she told me that she was planning to transfer to Texas to be closer to her sister. I ask on occasion, updates on her status and if she is still moving.
Lately, he's been having his phone on him and constantly checking his phone ( just like he did when I suspected him of cheating before it came out) when I ask him a question he says "none of your business" or "none of your f***ing business" or "who are you the FBI?" I am just seriously just asking innocent questions. Plus He regularly threatens to end things, maybe it's to hurt me or maybe it's because he DOES have SOMEONE waiting in the wings if we end things.
I don't know what to do. We've been relatively good these past few days but I am constantly walking on eggshells with him and though he tells me that I am more than enough for him and that he loves me, in my heart i feel as though that isn't true. I just need some feedback on my situation.