First Love

[Lsummer]

Im 26 now but when I was about 18/19 I met this guy and we dated for about 7 months. I instantly fell for him and was just head over heels for him. He was about a year younger than me. We were crazy teens that had an amazing time together. I had dated guys before him and I just felt a connection with him that I havent felt with anyone else. I dont know if it was love or lust but it was defiantly special, to me at least. He was my first love and I think I may have been his. Being so young we split ways. After we broke up he got a similar tattoo that I have on my arm on his leg. We had a pretty rough break up and it tore me apart for years. Im married now and have a four year old daughter and I am very happy in my marriage. My husband is good to me and I love him to death. However, after 6 years I got a message from my ex just asking how Ive been and whats going on in my life. I talked to him for a good portion of the day, just catching up. We talked like it was nothing. I dont know what I was expecting but I was hoping to kinda settle some feelings Ive had for years now. I apologized for acting like a crazy child after the break up because I did. We talked about our past fun times and how it was nice to be so carefree back then. We started talking about what we remember about each other, and both said that we tried hard to forget everything. But he said he remembers the first time he saw me naked. Now this was a guy I was very intimate with. We had amazing sex and he was VERY romantic. He was the most romantic person I have ever been with. Im not sure if this was a statement from him basically saying that I was something special to him. IDK...I could tell that he held back some things he was wanting to say because He knows that I am happily married. Im going to school to get a good degree and I could tell he was happy for me and didnt want to interfere. I dont know what to make about his statement. I foolishly added him on facebook and saw where he posted saying something about how bob segar was on spotify. Hes not one to post alot on facebook. After we split, I moved and we talked a little but he dedicated the song Against the Wind by bob segar to me so I kinda feel like that post was kinda like a hint to me about how he was thinking about me. Idk maybe Im over thinking things. What do You make of all this. I deleted him again because I felt like I was foolish for adding him in the first place. It just brought back alot of feelings that took years to forget about. I feel like hed talk to me more if it wernt for me being married. Hes going to school too and we both have alot of things were working on to improve ourselves. My question is how do I forget about him? I thought time healed but it hasnt. I am very happy where I am at now but I cant get over some things for some reason. I dont intend to message him again and I ended our conversation on good terms. I dont know whats bothering me so much. It may be that I need to know if he felt and feels that same way about me and I do him.

[madotnw_nihs]

First loves always have a special place in hour hearts. I remember mine and I will think about things we did from time to time, but that's where it stops. I don't think about being back with her or anything. I think only time can help you get through this. Make sure you stay away from any contact and unfriend him on FB. It's fun to think about what it could have been, but don't try to think about it anymore.