Hi, I'm new here. I joined this forum bc I am desperate to get others' opinions. My boyfriend and I recently got into an argument. I said some really mean things that I regret. So he broke up with me. Part of me understands but part of me feels resentful towards him bc he promised he'd never give up on me. I suffer from borderline personality disorder and severe depression so he's aware of how fragile my emotions are. Not that I'd expect to be coddled bc of it. Just thought he'd be a little more understanding. Ok, so to give as much info as possible, we haven't been together long. Only 6 months. But I really care about and love him. He's told me the same. This was his first relationship. In every aspect; physically, romantically, etc... not mine. When we argued I told him I'm just going to keep him around as a place holder until someone better comes along. I didn't mean it and obviously regret it now. He texted me the next day saying he thinks it's best we go our seperate ways. In spite of that, we continued talking and I continued fighting to be with him. Breaking down and crying over the phone. He said he WANTS to be with me but doesn't know how bc he doesn't trust me anymore. I feel like he's being a little too harsh bc I've never given him a reason to NOT trust me. Besides saying what I said, of course. He continued texting me good morning messages and telling me he loves me but we haven't seen each other or spoke over the phone since. Which isn't like us. A few days ago I begged him to define what's going on with us. If we're still together or not bc the ambigious, mundane texts were confusing and hurtful if we were no longer together. I felt like I was being led on. So I told him I still loved him but that the communication has to stop if we're not together anymore. I left the door open though and told him that if he wants to talk about us, he knows where to find me. That was 3 days ago. We haven't spoken since. Is there a chance we could work it out? Do I just give him space? Or is this indication that it's over? Also, am I wrong for feeling resentful for him completely abandoning me or is he well within his rights given what I said to him?
Thanks in advance