well first off, let me clear something up, she's not my first love, she's my second. also, I do realize that it may not happen again, for a third time. this was our second time around and for some reason I just have a feeling that there will be another. she had boyfriends, well somewhat, when we were friends in between our first break up and when we got back together and yea, I was jealous but I was also supportive because I do love her and I want to see her happy.
I really don't know for sure what's going to happen in the future, I'm just going to try my best to give her whatever it is that she needs and I do know that she will talk to me again, eventually.
last, I know it was my fault, but I do know it wasn't entirely, she broke up with me, she didn't tell me why and she didn't do anything to try and fix it, she just ended it instead. I am pretty sure the little conversation with her mother had something to do with it though.