OK I think I will lower everyone's opinion of me by telling you this, but hey, I already posted so much may as well be honest. I feel bad about this but, whats done is done.
Its funny how something can be right in front of you and you never think of it.
From time to time my g/f will call me when she is without net access and ask me to check her email for her, so I log on and tell her if she has msgs. It has been a few months since shes done this, but earlier today she asked me to check while she was driving to work. So I check for her msgs, then pause right when I was about to close the window.
So after thinking it through for a minute I decided what the hell. Yes I realize this is low, but hey, I know she is lying to me, even if she isn't cheating she has been acting very funny and not telling me where she is going, so though it doesn't make it right I went ahead.
I skimmed a few msgs, looked back as far as when she started her new job, this is rather pointless in one way since her "friend" at work doesn't own a computer, a tidbit she told me before she completely stopped mentioning his name.
I figure there might be other things, I look at msgs from friends, plenty of people asking how her and I are doing but nothing in reply, she doesn't save sent msgs so no luck there. Finally I find a few msgs from friends back in town, they just mention how they should all go out one night.
Finally I see one from people from work. She mentions she is sorry she couldn't make the poker game, because she was busy with family, and that it is some guy at works birthday soon, so maybe they should have a party for him. Eh. That isn't much.
She isn't a stupid girl so I am sure if she had a msg saying "Yeah I'm cheating! blah blah" she would have deleted it immediately.
Feel kinda dirty, especially since I didn't find anything out.
Oh well /me goes to wash hands.